A Neko should be in bed

Let me preface this by saying 7 am is very early. Anything I say this morning may be the product of a delusional mind.                   It seems to me that every time someone refutes something I point out, they go on to prove my point. I don't think I choose today to give examples, but if you take offense to this statement you might want to analyze why.                   That has always seemed a no brainer to me. If something makes you feel a certain way there is a reason. But you shouldn't jump to conclusions about this either.  The reason isn't always what it first appears to be. Yet it could be just that easy as well. All I'm saying is examine your feelings before making a snap judgment or ignoring them.                   It's making me nervous to write this blog now that I have a better idea of who reads it. On one hand I want certain people to better examine their feelings and responses. On the other hand I am afraid of what they will discover.  When it comes right down to it, if we end up with an undeniable truth that's a good thing. Even if that truth hurts me.                   This is me preparing for the worst. Hope for the best; prepare for the worst. If things work out for the best I will be thrilled. If it doesn't I will be prepared. Not happy, but prepared. And who am I really to say what "for the best" is. Certain recent events lead me to believe it may be slightly different than my first thought. I won't interpret that for you. Suffice it to say it doesn't mean exactly what you think it might mean. Or maybe it does, but I don't think so. (delusional mind at play)                   Last night I went out with friends to the Super Happy Funtime Burlesque show (I hope I got that right). It was a lot of fun, however if your easily offended it's not for you. Just saying. I ran into a few people I haven't seen in a long time.  I didn't talk to any of them for long. Just a quick hi how have you been's. Still, it's nice to see people you know. It's nice sometimes to reconnect with the past.                   Speaking of the past, it amuses me that I can go months or years without hearing from N. As soon as I'm single he's right there. Maybe this shouldn't amuse me, maybe it should scare me.  It is kind of creeperish. I am not even sure how he knows these things. I suppose he doesn't. It's his inner creeper instinct. Thing with N is we tried that, it didn't really work out. He's a good  friend and we were lucky to be able to keep the friendship after the first go around. Best to not test the fates and all that. But maybe I'm wrong Maybe persistence should pay off at some point. Maybe he'd be better off not going for it right after a break up. The answer will always be NO. He's still one of the best friends I have and will always be there with a shoulder to cry on.                   Today the Neko's eyes are opened to possibilities, but still focused on her true desire.   Stef   Bohemia doesn't die it just passes out for a while!