In an attempt to build up my courage I am going to write about what a chicken shit I am.
I like meeting new people. I like making new friends. I am too frightened to make the first move. I have gotten better … sort of.
Now I can sometimes get myself to friend people that interest me on facebook. Because I don't have to look at them when I do it. The idea is when I have them trapped on my facebook I can feed them tid bits to earn their trust and maybe one day when I'm not looking I'll turn around and they'll have responded to a tid bit. It's a slow drawn out process of trust building. And now I feel like you are all stray cats.
When I get people on my facebook … I am too afraid to talk to them. Somehow I have ended up with a belief that they don't really want to talk to me. That I am not worth the effort it would take to get to know me.
I know how silly this may sound, after all why would they accept my friend request if they didn't want to get to know me? Let's be truthful. How many facebook friends do you have that you don't really care to hear from? (Richard you are not allowed to answer this question … I am certain you are the exception to the rule) Sometimes people accept friend requests out of habit; sometimes to keep the peace. So as silly as it sounds I can't assume people want to talk to me.
In summary if I have friended you on facebook I probably want to get to know you (unless I already know you then it's just because you're a friend) Hopefully I will get up the courage to talk to you at some point. If I don't feel free to talk to me and call me a Neko Chicken Cat. <3
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