I would like to preface this blog by stating that Matt has asked to have his blog initial changed to X as that would be cooler. So from this point forward Matt will be referred to as X instead of M.
And about X. I have a hard time believing he doesn't love me any longer. Why is this? Very simple, he can not look me in the eyes and tell me he just wants to be friends. He can't look me in the eyes and tell me exactly what it is he does want. However, if he didn't love me he wouldn't have this issue. Well I suppose if he didn't love me he could be confused on whether he wanted to be friends or just wanted me out of his life. But he wouldn't be confused by whether he wanted to be just friends or wanted more.
He's so simple sometimes in his confusion. I have a theory on the bigger issue and I may share that at some point. But I need to iron out the details.
This has been the Neko's little blog. Next blog we will discover someone new in the Neko's life and how this is affecting her. Oh and for anyone interested X and I are dating. We are not bf/gf but we are dating and we will see how this goes and what develops. For not I am happy to have him close to me in any way at all.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Thursday, July 7, 2011
In past blogs I admitted to not being able to move forward and to be doing my best to remove M from my life. Well that went as far as me telling him that was what I was doing.
Sometimes it takes soemthing extreme to clear away the misconceptions. I told him I was going to attempt to move on without him. Probably not in so many words, but what I did say galvanized him enough to plan a "date".
I use the term "date" because I don't know what other term to use. We are getting together. We will go out and do something fun. We will talk and work on our relationship. For all practical purposes it's a date. Just so we know I'd like it to end with a … :p
I've switched pens and now I am writing with the world as my eraser… Nothing brings out a nightmare like the idea of being erased by the world.
That is what is currently going on with the saga of M. In other saga's , Joel has started sitting with me whenever possible. He is nice to talk to. He will listen to me whine about anything and everything. He will discuss things with me and give his thoughts and opinons. This is important to me. I don't like guessing what I guy is thinking.
Another slow development. Someone I would really like to know better …. I mad an unusal move and approached him first. He responded favorably, but there has been no further forward movement. Well maybe a little. I feel like I should make the next move but I don't know what that move should be.
I would like to take this moment to say if I bang the earth on my desk it flashes red.
So in conclusion, M has made a giant step forward in working towards the reparation of our relationship, Joel is a super nice guy I enjoy spending time with, And one other showed interested in talking to me, but seems difficult for me to approach. Yet approach him I intend to do I am just waiting for the right moment or the right idea to appear.
WISH ME LUCK STALKERS =^_^=
Odd that everytime I write a blog like this something happens that changes part of what I wrote. The 3rd person I talk about who is currently nameless made a successful move by talking to me. :D
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